December – Milestone – So Distracted

Hey guys, welcome back! Hope everyone who celebrated had a great Thanksgiving. Ours was nice and quiet and I think it was the most food I’ve eaten in months. (And I’m ok with that.)

Now here we are in December and there is just so much going on. I’ve been in full holiday shopping mode while trying to create some new things for one of my online shops (and failing miserably) as well as still trying like hell to shake the illness that has been plaguing me since August.

I’m also a huge holiday movie and tv specials kind of girl. Even as a kid, I couldn’t wait to get a tv guide and a highlighter and search for every version of a Christmas Carol and crazy animated special being shown on tv. These days, I look online every single day and make a list (check it twice) and then see what I can squeeze in to watch when I can. As I’ve said many times here, I’m a five year old in a very much not five year old body and this time of the year really brings it out in me. It’s the stuff like this that keeps the kid in me alive though. I still sing to the Grinch and Heat Miser and all the fun shows they only show this time of the year.

I also went a little crazy between Black Friday and Cyber Monday sales. I’m a shopaholic at heart and during this festive season, I go nuts. Yes I got some books for myself, the sales were just too good!) Hopefully everyone will like what I’ve gotten and that my inner Santa has worked its magic.

All of this is to say…I’ve been distracted as hell from working properly on my book. I mean, I still have been putting the hours in, I really have. However, I’ve been fading much earlier while working and most of that though is due to the fact that I just haven’t been feeling well. Plus, the meds and the fevers have me a little loopy. Not that there is much of a difference than how I normally am, you can ask anyone who knows me about this. lol

I am, however, proud to say that I have hit a major milestone of words cut so far. Ready? I’ve cut just over 20,000 words! Ok so I still have hundreds of thousands to go, but still, this is a good chunk taken out and it is definitely a good start.

I am nowhere near the internal deadline I put in place for myself and that is bumming me out. But seeing this number appear tonight was the big shot of confidence that I needed. Just knowing that I hit that and that it’s truly showing just how hard I’ve been working? Huge. Really, really huge. So as distracted as I’ve been, I really am seeing the progress that I’ve been making. For someone like myself, this is so important.

This book has been an even larger undertaking than I ever imagined. I knew of course it would be the hardest work I’ve ever done. I’m not blind to that. But when I saw how high my word count was and what I’d need to cut in order to submit it, my old self would have given up and started work on a new one. I’m completely dedicated to this manuscript. It invades my thoughts 24/7, including my sleep time. Seeing actual proof that I’ve been making this dent has me excited knowing that yes, I CAN do this! I WILL do this! I will also get multiple books out of this story and I think knowing that, is a big bonus that is also keeping me going.

Even now with the holiday season upon us and all of life’s distractions, this work is keeping me going. And I truly mean that. Every couple of days, it feels like labor, can’t lie about that. Again, I think it’s just because I haven’t been feeling well. All that aside, once I sit and really get into it every night, I know it’s where I’m supposed to be and what I’m supposed to be doing. To keep it festive, I got myself holiday themed keys for my keyboard to keep me on track because that’s the kind of grown up I am!

And that is where I will leave you today.

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Busy – Rewrites – Heat Miser

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Hey guys, welcome back! Once again I must apologize to you for being MIA over this last week, week and a half. I assure you, I haven’t gone anywhere. Just putting in a ton of time on my work as well as gearing up for the holiday season.

It’s Thanksgiving week here in the states and while that used to mean the ‘official’ start of the holiday season, these days it seems, we can now start to decorate whenever we feel like it…and I’m on board with this 100%.

When I was a kid, I couldn’t wait to watch the parade on Turkey Day. It was during the airing of it that the airing of seasonal commercials would begin. Actually, they’d start halfway through the parade. Seriously. As the hours passed, we’d begin to see an ad here, another there (the M&M’s meeting Santa was big for being the first one) and I’d be so excited! To this day, I still start to look for the tv listings to see when the movies and specials are starting to appear…I’m a five year old in a very not five year old body during the Christmas season. And yes, I sat here the other night watching both the original Grinch and Year Without a Santa Claus, (aka. Heat Miser) and singing to every single song. 

All that aside, I’ve been working so damned hard on this manuscript to get it done. Every time I think I have a handle on which way it’s going, I think of something new. I’ve been rewriting several chapters from the point of view of the MMC and I have to say, I really like writing for him. I didn’t think I could write from the male perspective, but it turns out, I can! So I’ve been flipping some chapters around to show his side of things and by doing that, my word count is getting considerably lower.

The other night it also occurred to me, and maybe it’s because of the time of year we are in and the books I’ve been ordering for myself these days, but I think I’m going to switch things up a bit. I make several references now to the characters loving fall and Christmas so I’m thinking that instead of this book taking place earlier in the year, Spring/Summer, I should move it to Fall/Winter. Why not right? Stop making the references and have it set during my own favorite time! Of course doing this is going to take considerable reworking and right now, I’m fine with that.

I think my fellow writers will understand this…I HATE EDITING! Ok, let me rephrase that…I hate editing my OWN work. I used to love editing others, can’t lie about that. But really, I miss the writing so much. I still have so many ideas for these characters and quite frankly, after seven+ rereads and doing so many cuts, etc, I want to go back to the writing, the creating, the making their lives what I think they could be. Unfortunately for me, the writing is where I get over enthusiastic and end up with hundreds of thousands of words that then need to be what???? Edited and cut! (It really is a vicious cycle.)

I’ve read so many Fall and holiday themed books over the last year, I think my mindset is with them as well. So I’ve decided not to fight it any longer. Besides, if I switch the book to this particular time of the year, it can become someone’s new ‘cozy’ read for next year (fingers crossed) and in the long run, some of what I’ve already written will really make a little more sense. At least in my mind it will. (Work with me here.)

In a nutshell, I’ve been losing my mind about all of this. In my head, the book is done. It’s ready to go. It’s ready to submit. And yet, I also know that I’m freaking delusional and it needs SO much work. So…much…work.

So here I am. Trying to get this done, still watching pieces of Hamilton every single night and wishing I could speak with Lin-Manuel Miranda and ask for his help. (WWLMM is my mantra now) and getting into the holiday spirit all while still fighting whatever illness I’ve had since August. However, neglecting this blog was never supposed to be a part of it and for that, I’m sorry. Being here is what is supposed to keep me on track, helps me to work through issues and also touch base with you all and hope you are doing well. I very much hope to do better.

And that is where I will leave you for today. I appreciate you guys so much and thank you for hanging in there with me!

If you are celebrating this week, I hope you have a great turkey day. As a vegetarian myself, I’ll be saving lots of room for apple pie because that’s how I roll. Also, and this is a very shameless plug…with ‘black Friday’ deals all over the place, if you are looking to start your shopping, I hope you’ll check out the links scattered all around the site. I’ll post more below for you to see and every purchase made though my site helps to support it and greatly appreciated. 

Thanks again for being here and let’s get the holidays started!

Until next time…cheers!!

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Birthday – That’s It

Hey guys, welcome back! Just a quick post to say hiya and to let you know that I’m  happy you’re here.

Today is my birthday and while it was a lot more subdued than many of my past ones, it was still a nice one. Just vegging out and relaxing, having some treats and loving the messages from friends and family.

Not too long ago, I was out celebrating for the entire month and lucky if I remembered what happened. Our group’s celebrations were pretty much drunken evenings filled with a ton of laughter and lots of shots and boy, how I miss those times!

This year though, being sick, I’ve been laying low and frankly, that’s ok. Still doing my thing, getting in extra reading and writing time and watching Clark W. Griswold try to give his family a Merry Christmas despite what Uncle Eddie does. 😬

I ask that in honor of my day and if you can spare it (I know not many can these days), please donate something to your favorite charity. I’m personally a huge animal lover so that’s always a plus, but you do you.

Also, while I usually save this for the end of a post, I’m picking my day to share this and frankly, have no shame…you are looking to shop online for the upcoming season, be sure to check out the links I have all over this site. From my shops that can be found in the sidebar or linked below) to the On the Bookshelf pages where you can find some new reading inspiration, not only can you find great gift ideas, but you will also help support this site and in turn, myself. Little known fact that my online gigs are my only income, so every little bit helps. Again, if you can’t, totally get it. This year has been a rough one. So why not come and just check out my social links then?

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And that is where I will leave you for today. I hope you all are well and thank you again for being here! 

Until next time…cheers!

Enjoyment – Puzzle – Bit by Bit

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Hey guys, welcome back! Yes, I slacked off here again. (Sorry) Some life stuff happened and sometimes that’s just how it goes. However, I’m still here and admittedly listening to holiday music as I write this…yes, I’m one of those. 😬

Anywhoo, I’ve been working hard on the book and tonight, I think I finally figured out how I’m going to not only get the word count down significantly, but also how to change the timeline a little. Right now, the story is supposed to take place in a month’s time. That may need to change, or better yet, I need to reel it in. Either way, I’m going to have to work it like a puzzle. Breaking up the entire manuscript and piecing it together bit by bit.

Quick segue here…a little known fact by those who know me now, I used to be a theater person. I majored in it in college and also worked in a professional theater for a few years. This was many years ago, but I still have a great love of shows, both musicals and straight plays. (Hamilton has taken over my brain and is on repeat now on the Disney+ app.) I tell you this because a song that can invade my brain is one from an old show called Sunday in the Park with George. The song Putting it Together has come to the surface as I work on this book. Why? Check out these lyrics:

Bit by bit putting it together,

piece by piece, only way to make a work of art

every moment makes a contribution

every little detail plays a part

having the vision’s no solution

everything depends on execution

putting it together

that’s what counts.

Seriously? Why that is not the anthem of every creative person in the world is a mystery. So as I move around chapters, rewrite character monologues and create new scenarios for a book that technically is already written, yes, this song has been taking up residence in my brain and making me a little crazier than usual. Still, all hail Stephen Sondheim for writing it.

I had no idea when writing this book that I’d be doing this at all. Taking chapters and moving them around. Taking full paragraphs and adding them to another ‘day’ in the life of these characters. Losing it a little here and there as I cut full pages and cursing myself for having written so much in the first place. I am now understanding the writer trope of being a full on alcoholic. It’s both satisfying and infuriating watching what I created be changed in such ways. And this is even before a true editor gets a hold of it!

What makes it even more brutal is that one of my favorite activities in life is taking long walks. I was always a walker and used to walk 15-20 miles a week, sometimes more, before I got sick 9 years ago. Especially now that I’ve had another setback, this is not in the cards for me, so walking off the frustrations isn’t a possibility. It doubly sucks because I used to get great ideas and have revelations during these nighttime walks. I’d suddenly figure out a plot point or backstory or a line that I’ve been struggling with, rush home and get it down before I could lose the idea. Now it happens while I sleep, or rather try to sleep…sometimes I get lucky and it happens while I’m washing dishes or showering. At least I’m awake and aware during those times.

Am I rambling again? You betcha! I’m struggling like crazy to make an internal deadline and as I cannot scream out loud, I shall rant about it here. So here’s the deal, as I cannot give you all a group hug for following along with my insanity, I ask that those of you who are reading this, treat yourself to something fun. Get yourself some of your favorite ice cream, get that book you’ve been keeping in your save for later, take that trip, buy yourself a present before the gift giving season hits hard. Do something just for YOU.

We are all working towards some kind of goal. No matter what it is, we need to remember to take a break, clear the mind and enjoy life for a little bit. My own personal escape is reading and I make time every night to knock out a few chapters. Now it’s your turn. One of these days, I hope to have a more entertaining and funny post than I have been giving you lately. In the meantime, I want to make sure that you guys take time for yourselves and get some enjoyment out of this thing called life. The stress will always be there (sorry) and if we don’t take the time to enjoy ourselves, what’s it all for?

And that is where I’m leaving you for today. As always, I thank you SO much for being here and here’s to treating ourselves!

Until next time…cheers!!!

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November – Goals? – Possible Rewrite

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Hey guys, welcome back and welcome to November! I am still in shock that it is already nearing the end of the year as in my mind, it’s still September. However, I love this time of the year and have been slowly transitioning from the Fall/Halloween decorations to the holiday stuff. Some may say it’s too early and I really do not care. If it makes you happy, you do it. And seeing our place decked out in thousands of lights always makes me happy.

Anywhoo, let’s get on with it shall we?

First off, hope everyone had a lot of fun and had some trick or treaters over Halloween. We had none, yet we bought enough candy for the entire city. (We like to be prepared.) I am one for traditions and do the same things every year. The only one I really flaked on though was my annual screening of the original Halloween. I like to make a game (used to be a drinking game but, meds) out of how many times PJ Soles says ‘totally.’ Trust me, it’s a lot and you can get one hell of a buzz off doing it. This year, I wasn’t feeling the movie though. I watched the first twenty minutes and went back to Big Bang reruns. Halloween was always huge with me. Loved dressing up, going to parties, going to our favorite bars and man, did my group of friends know how to do it up right! Miss those days, but that’s ok. I still celebrate in my own way and it is all a part of the best time of the year: Sept. 1st- Dec. 31st. Now, I’m looking forward to this month, thanksgiving, my birthday and letting the holiday season seep into my very soul…it’s what makes me, me.

So enough of that stuff, what about the book? Well, I’m stuck. Like super stuck. I’m in yet another read through, proud to say I’ve now hit the 10,000 word mark of words cut and still have hundreds of thousands left to go. I’m noticing something different this time around though and if you’ll indulge me a little, I need to get it out here and see if the thought still holds true…

I’m thinking a big rewrite may be in order. There, I said it.

The more I’m re-reading this manuscript, the more I’m finding an underlying storyline that I didn’t see before. Again, I’d very much like this to be a series and this is of course, the origin story. But I’ve been noticing that there are things I wrote that have been swept under the rug and could be crucial character traits for later on.

I’m also finding it impossible to figure out where the major cuts have to come from. I’ve said several times that to me, the way it is written now is exactly how I want it to read. But it is so long. Like, so, so long. I’ve been trying to also figure out if I can just cut what I have into several books. I mean, the word count is certainly there for a multiple book series as it is now. However, if I cut it up that way, it won’t make sense.  Ok, so next is mixing and matching chapters to reel it in better, but then the flow is lost. If I do a rewrite, I will be able to keep some of what’s there now, introduce more from the side characters and create more depth to the story earlier than what is presented in the draft I already have done.

Another thing I keep going back and forth on is the heavier storyline. This book is half romcom-half serious story with a message. If I keep the romcom aspects with the rewrite, yes, it would be an entire romantic comedy book. I could make the serious storyline a whole separate book but then there goes the FMC’s backstory. I’d also like to be able to use this platform as a way to get the more serious story out there. To prove that survival can happen. That you can in fact, not only move on from a dark past but also start a whole new life on your own terms. Up until this latest read through, I thought I did a damned good job of getting that message out there. Again, it is just a very LONG message. And just how bad do I want the heavier past to be?

If you understood any of that? Way to go! Imagine this going round and round in my head 24/7 even while I’m sleeping. This is life now. Well, this and reading…and watching Hamilton on repeat.

My goal was to have the first draft done by Christmas. I was hoping upon hope that with the new year, I’d have something to submit. Now here it is, November and I may have to rewrite this whole thing. Can I still meet the goal? I guess we’ll have to see! This my friends is what keeps me going. The utter insanity of trying to get a book done by the end of the year, while sick, while trying to get through my TBR list of books and while on meds that some nights? Have me reading the same paragraphs over and over again. I say, place your bets now to see if I can do this. (Hint: I’m damned determined to do this!)

And that is where I am leaving you for today. A crazed ramble of thoughts, more than I usually do, as my brain turns to mush while I read the same story on a loop. I think this time though? I’ve hit the nail on the head of what needs to be done. To pull from what is already written and turn it into the book that I KNOW is inside of me. To do the rewrite and make it something so much better than what I already have done. 

And if you’ve been following along with this? Please know, that I think you are awesome and I thank you for being there. Having a platform to work out my issues has been more than therapeutic. It has kept me focused and more than driven than ever to get this done.

Until next time, I wish you all a happy new month and may there be lots of awesome opportunities coming to you over these next weeks! Cheers guys!!

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If you’ve made it this far, I can’t thank you enough. Just, thank you. See you soon! 🍁