Characters – Story – Early Pumpkins

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Hey guys, welcome back! Hope everyone is doing great out there and enjoying their Summers. We just picked our first pumpkins today! Yes, I know, it’s very early…don’t care. Last year, we put out some pumpkins for our critter friends and a horrible overgrown tree grew over them. When they cut the tree down, an accidental pumpkin patch emerged and lo and behold, on August 18th, the first ones were ready to pick! As someone who would live in Fall year round? This was the perfect way to start the week.


Anywhoo…let’s get to it shall we?

Over the past week, I’ve done almost no writing. Instead, I’ve been doing a complete reread of my manuscript to make sure that it flows, the tone is consistent and the story holds up. What’s so great about doing these rereads (something I highly recommend doing if you are writing a book) is that because it’s been months since I’ve started it, reading the early chapters again is like reading the book for the first time. There is so much that I don’t remember writing. Not so much the story of course, that will always be at the top of my mind. But rather little one liners and character traits I threw in there early. Little tidbits of information and backstory that I had to constantly make notes of to go back to in these now later chapters that I’m in. What was a great surprise to me is that, as I read this as a new reader, I laughed, I cried, I was pretty proud of myself throughout the entire thing. Sure, some parts made me cringe and called for rewrites…again, this is why you do this! Overall though, I think it’s going ok.

I’ve mentioned before in an earlier post that I have found myself in a genre problem. I started this book with the full intention of it being a romcom. I love me a good romantic comedy, (thank you Nora Ephron for my early inspiration) and have wanted to write one of my own for some time. For the most part, that’s what this novel truly is. The issue comes into a deeper plot point that is a bit darker and deals with issues that could be trigger sensitive to some. And no, I’m not talking ‘dark romance’ stuff, that’s not my deal. At least, not this book.

When I decided to read this again from start to (almost) finish, I wanted to see if the story would still hold. Would it be that obvious where the two don’t mesh together? Would it not work as a complete story? Would it be a noticeable jump from comedy to drama? I’m both happy and confused to say that I never saw where the jump happens. It flowed well, worked out seamlessly and it can be kept as it is, unless I decide to completely rewrite the darker chapters and come up with an entirely different storyline. I’ve been literally losing sleep about this. I happen to like what I wrote a lot. But it takes what was once a fully romantic comedy and changes the genre to what? I don’t know. ‘Contemporary Romance’ maybe? Or the oh so dreaded general ‘Women’s fiction?’ (I will forever hate that ‘genre’.)

I am so confused by all of this I don’t know where to go with it.

What has been great about doing all of this is getting thoroughly reacquainted with the characters. From start to finish. Reminding myself of their quirks, their humor, their affection for one another across all of the relationships and of course, the support they have during some life challenges that come their way.

Writing this in the first person has been fun. Reading it this way has also blurred the lines sometimes between ‘was it something I read or did that actually happen to me?” Not that the story is me by any means, but you get it, right? You get so involved with a story, whether a book or a series, etc and a week or two later you can’t remember if it was real, a dream or hey that actually happened! Every night after reading a few chapters, it took me a while to shake out of that feeling. I’ve already been dealing with this on the nights that I’m writing because again, I’m writing it as the character. Basically, it’s been an odd journey this time around. I didn’t write my first book this way and this is all new territory for me. I feel though that by doing this, I’ve created more depth and more feeling to the main character and I really hope that comes across to other readers  as well. I want her story to be one that is not only one that you cheer for, but also one that is relatable, as well as one that you can feel for deeply during her darkest moments. She is truly a character I’m proud of and have loved writing her so much.

I just wish I could find that special sign that would come to me that says, yes! Keep it this way! Keep all of it! Or on the flip side…trash it. Rewrite it. Forget that you even went that way, what the hell were you thinking? But so far, no magical symbol has come my way to sway me either way. It works as it is and maybe this isn’t the book that should be my total foray into a complete romcom experience.

In the meantime, my ulcer grows, my story keeps going and the editing continues. I will say this, the closer I’m getting to wrapping up this book, (and seriously considering writing a sequel to it to keep the characters going), I’m also looking into querying agents. I had thought about going the self publishing route, but I’m immensely excited about this book and would like to see it in much more professional hands. Right now, I need to completely finish this manuscript and stop thinking of ways to keep the story going! Every time I think I can find a way to end it, I think of something else. I just don’t want to say goodbye to these people yet. So my ending has to be something that will be good for everyone. Myself, my characters and of course, my readers.

And that is where I leave you for today! I hope you’ve gotten something out of this post and I thank you so much for following along with my continued writing journey. I think if I had blogged during the writing of my first book, I’d be much further along with getting that one out to the public, instead of having put it aside in edits to write this new one. Procrastination is the curse of the writer and I have it in spades. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Until next time…cheers!

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Focus – Concentration – Favorite Chapter

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Hey guys, welcome back! I hope this week has been going well for you, it certainly has for me! I’ve done more marathon nights of writing and in between these focused binges, I got to see the Connecticut team win the first game of the Little League World Series! (Go Fairfield!) I love watching this series every year. I’m a rabid baseball fan and watching these kids brings me hope, as they show a level of sportsmanship that I wish more adults would. They are fun games and it’s great to watch them making friends with kids from all around the world. (I also love it when they show MLB players in the stands having fun and being true fans.)

Anywhoo…my concentration has been laser focused on the latest chapters of my book. I wrote so much over the last two nights alone, my eyes have become blurred, dry and bloodshot and the headache is incredible. I’m not gonna lie, a ton of caffeine has been involved in this sudden burst of productivity, but it’s been oh so worth it.

Just this morning, I finished what is possibly my most favorite chapter of the entire thing. After a few emotional days with a rather deep plot point, to have some more lighthearted things to write has been a lot of fun. I really enjoyed this part of the story. And after rereading this current chapter again to make sure I got it just right, I have to say, I’m so happy with how it turned out. I’ve been going over the first chapters of the book once again as well. By reacquainting myself with the earlier tone of the writing, I think that it’s really helped bring this third act full circle.

There is still so much work that has to be done on my manuscript. A whole lot of editing, rewrites and more. But for now, at this particular moment, I’m happy with what I’ve written. I still have a little more to go before the first draft is officially complete, but this has been a true labor of love. One that I’ve been so proud to work on. My total obsession that lives in my thoughts 24/7. I dream about these characters, this small town that I’ve invented, this couple and their journey. A part of me doesn’t want to get to the next part. A huge part of me doesn’t want to actually finish this book. It has been my escape from real life, my hideout, my haven as it were. I don’t want to say goodbye to it. In reality, I won’t have to for some time, as again, lots of work still to be done. But knowing that the end of this particular story is close is starting to weigh on me. I’m just hoping that I can give these people the ending that they truly deserve. An ending that my readers truly deserve.

And that is where I’m leaving you for today. I know this one was short and sweet, but I’ve been writing now for 8 hours straight and wanted to write this post while the good mood was still with me!

I thank you as always for being here and following along. Until next time…Cheers!

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No Sleep, Character Obsession and Just Kept Writing

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Hey guys, welcome back! I hope you all got to see the bonus post I did filled with Summer Reading ideas. If not, it can be found in the ‘new posts’ tab, I’l also link it below this post. I am planning to put it up as part of the On the Bookshelf page as well as I’ve been really neglecting the rest of the site this year as far as updated pages. Also, please note that my links show up on this site in a darker color. They are (unfortunately?) not as defined as other sites.

Anywhoo, let’s get the post at hand, shall we?

Just going to say it, I haven’t been sleeping. Part of it is because it’s hotter than the sun here in the Northeast these days (and other places as well) and my AC is struggling to keep things cool. I mean, 90 degrees inside isn’t exactly cooling things off. I did treat myself to some Gatorade so hey, living the dream!

The lack of sleep has had me writing a whole lot. I have the house to myself this week and with my odd sleep schedule of staying up and night and sleeping during the day, I decided the other day to see how long I could go just writing.

I mentioned in a previous post that I’ve developed a pretty regular routine. To give you an idea (read:recap) of how screwed up my schedule is: I always start by reading the previous night’s work and editing as I go. This usually begins around 4am. At 5am I’m most likely done and then I write the new stuff until about 7:30-8am or until I finish a chapter. I type very quickly, so a chapter can sometimes only take me two hours or a little more. For a little perspective though, some of my chapters are short at only 11 pages or so. I take a lot of meds because of medical issues and I need stuff to help me sleep. Sometimes I will take something about an hour into writing so that I can fall asleep by 9-10am. (Boring you yet? Sorry)

The problem with this a lot of times, is that I’m just getting into the story or getting more ideas for where the story can go just as the sleep stuff kicks in. Then I’m stuck replaying it all in my head making it hard to get any actual sleep. Again, I have the place to myself and had nowhere to go the other day. So I decided to try something and not to take anything. To see how long I could keep going with the story. To just keep writing.

When I finished what is a very pivotal chapter, I went to do a page count and I had typed out 31 pages! I started at around 5am and went until 1pm. I just kept writing.

Will I keep a lot of it? Will the chapter be broken up into two? Is any of it good? Well, that’s what editing is for! But to know that I could keep going like that proved to me that I’d like to try doing this more often. That stifling the creativity just as it gets rolling may not be the way to go. And yes, I have tried starting earlier than 4am. It didn’t stick.

This story has really consumed me. Suddenly, scenes I hadn’t really planned on putting in, are taking over and I’ve been surprised at how they fit into the story as a whole. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that this new book is being written in the first person. The main character has invaded my thoughts and when I put everything away at ‘bedtime’, the story continues in my head like a movie. I will lay there trying to clear my head, only to sit back up and write stuff in the notebook I keep near my bed so I don’t forget anything later on. Yet still, the storyline keeps playing in my head like this week’s Netflix trailers.

There’s also a few things I keep going over, especially now that I’m 36 chapters in. Do I change things up? Do I throw in a major surprise? Is it time to start thinking of this as a series rather than a standalone book? I’ve created some characters and a location that has become so real to me now and that has become a great escape for me that frankly, I don’t want to leave it. But that’s me. What will readers think?

These are the things that are now starting to keep me up at night. That and a whole lot of heat.

And that is where I will leave you for today. I’m sorry if this one wasn’t too exciting but as I’ve said before, sometimes I just need to get out the thoughts so I can move on with my life. 😂

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Character Development, Blog Block and Learning New Stuff

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Welcome back and Happy Spring folks! If I haven’t said this before, I really am so thankful to those of you who bear with my inane ramblings every week. Especially when I’m on a ‘ramble roll!” Every week I swear to myself I’m not just going to keep typing, but then, I just keep going. So to all of you who stick it out with me…THANK YOU!

It’s pretty much been the same old stuff this week. I’ve been enjoying a new book that I got at our library’s bookstore, I binged a few shows, (all ones I’ve watched before) and have made progress on my writing. It is seriously crazy how much more I’m writing now that I have the new keyboard! I just like it so much and it is very easy on my hands which get worse with each passing month. And frankly, I love the sound of it as well. Even when I’m not using it, I still find myself pressing the keys just to hear it. My own personal ASMR as it were. Speaking of, there are a few ASMR YouTube channels I love to watch where all they do is type. Crazy? Maybe, but I find that not only is it awesome background noise and not only does it jumpstart something in my brain for my next chapter to write, but it also helped me decide how I wanted my own keyboard to sound. So I looked up a few things and got one and now I’m writing a lot more than I have in some time. I call that a win-win-win! (Plus ASMR rocks and tapping stuff puts me to sleep.)

The funny thing is, even though I have been getting more motivation for writing the sequel to my first novel, when it comes to this blog, sometimes I just have no clue what to write about. The last couple of weeks, I have been trying hard to post more regularly (that is how you build a following right?) and I do enjoy it once I get started, but that is the issue isn’t it? Just getting started.

That of course is the biggest issue with anything in life. I had always wanted to write a book but it took me until I was almost 50 years old to buckle down and get it going. Sure I have a ton of ‘started’ books, but none more than a few chapters and they could easily morph into short stories. But to actually finish something that was hundreds of pages long? Well, that took a lot longer and what a sense of accomplishment it was when it was done!

A blog, well, that’s different. First off, no characters have to be created. A lot of people over the years have said that I am quite a character myself, but in most cases, I’d rather they talk about me than me talk about myself. Besides, this time of my life has been rather uninteresting, except for all the medical crap and frankly, sooo done with talking about all that with anyone who isn’t part of my 10 doc team. So that leaves just me.

A few years back, I had a life, I had fun, I had great stories of times with friends and past jobs. But at this point of my journey…eh, I’m just here. I spend all of my time in bed, literally. I can’t work for anyone else because day to day my situation changes so I can’t meet deadlines. So I pour myself into books, both writing and reading. They are my escape and one I’m happy to have. (Ok, so I also watch tons of documentaries on Cults but that’s for another post. lol) 

“Blog block” is a term I have been using lately to describe how hard it can be sometimes to come up with a topic for this site. I know others have the same issue and all we hear about is, ‘putting out consistent content is what helps you grow as a creator’. Am I trying to be the next big influencer though? Why no, no I am not. I’d like a following of course and maybe make something from my posts to help with bills, but do I want to be someone who documents every facet of their everyday life for all to see? Hell no! I worked in social media and at one time, that was a goal. I wanted to be an influencer for content creators. I was building up a great network of similar folks out there and had a lot of freedom in doing so in my last job. It looked like it was going to be fun and this was pre-TikTok era (and pre illness as well). When I got sick and everything came to a halt, I watched as those I had been online friends take off with their brands. While a part of me was jealous as hell, I also saw the work they put into everything plus sharing maybe too much of their daily lives and there was no way I would’ve been able to keep up with that. Maybe the old me would have, but this post 2016 me? It makes me tired just thinking about it.

Not that I’m not ambitious. I have dreams. I have things I want to do. I’ve said in a previous post how I sell vintage and estate jewelry and have for 26 years. I’ve enjoyed it and have collected some wonderful stories from my buyers over the years…widows who found I had something similar to a piece their late husband had given them but they’d lost…a cancer patient who came out the other side of years of treatment and wanted to treat herself to something nice…a Hollywood costumer who needed a pair of 1920’s earrings for a period show she was working on…a comedian who was going on tour and needed some more sparkle for his wardrobe…seriously amazing people have crossed my path doing this eBay thing and I will be forever grateful for that. It’s all been nice and fun but I have months where nothing sells and I’m stuck having to borrow money and that feels horrible. I work very hard at what I do but this is a tough time for many and jewelry over eggs really isn’t a priority for most. (Although these days, jewelry may actually be cheaper!)

I also like to work on designs for my second business of stickers, bookmarks and stationery. I really want that biz to take off. I watch countless videos from others in similar businesses and have been learning so much from all of them. Most are by women half my age who are just killing it and all self taught! These are true workhorse hustlers who know how to get it done and I mean that in the best possible way. I make a point to watch several of these videos daily and take notes like I’m taking a master class in keychain and Cricut makers. I pay attention to what equipment they have, how they inventory their supplies, what they use for storage, any little thing that I think could help me down the line. Of course the main issue is having the money to invest in much of what I want to do, but that’s ok. I have been allowing myself the time to grow slowly so I don’t get overwhelmed. As much as I’d like to be successful at this particular type of creative business, I couldn’t handle some of the sales these other folks are doing. When I see videos of hundreds of shipping labels being printed out at once because a sale they were having on their site went better than planned, my first thought is always, “how the hell can one person handle shipping all of that out themselves?” I’m not afraid of success, I’m afraid of being able to keep up. So in the meantime, I learn new art techniques, I create new designs and I play with printer settings to get my stuff to look as good as it does on screen. It’s what I can handle right now and I tell myself, that’s ok. Because it is.

I also find that while I’m creating, say, a bookmark design or taking pics of a vintage brooch and trying to get the lighting just right, my mind frees up for my writing. I used to go for walks for that, but since walking and I are not on the best of terms right now, I need busy work to do the same thing. Writing a sequel/series is not something I ever thought I’d do but I am thoroughly enjoying it. It’s giving me some freedom to develop the characters a bit more and I find I really like the people I write about. When I have a little block though, I put it away for a little bit. Not too long or I lose momentum, but as an example: I recently got in some new vintage pieces. I am vigilant about learning all I can about something before I post them for sale. While doing the research, cleaning a piece, doing the pics for the listing, it keeps my mind occupied. Strangely, it is mostly when I’m cleaning them that I start to get some ideas going. Maybe it’s the water or the polishing, who knows. But I could be doing something as simple as that and suddenly my book pops into my head and it’s “omg she needs to be doing that next!” And then I have to write it down so I don’t forget it. However, even just that one thought can bring about the next chapter or two and many times the ideas flow so fast now that the block is gone that my fingers can’t keep up with my thoughts! I really wish I was one of those people whose mind gets freed up while cleaning. My house would shine from top to bottom! 

Characters whether in a book or in real life all have a backstory that makes them who they are. I know for myself, as strange as my life has been, it is the culmination of what I’ve gone through that has made me, me. In a story however, we have to create the backstories and that can be tough. In my own writing, I can picture the backstory of a character in my head and know how they got to where they are at this point of their lives. It’s getting it across to the reader that is the challenge. Now, I love a good challenge. I just wish sometimes that I could record my thoughts as they are happening so I can just say to a future reader, ‘here, this is where I was headed with that because this happened to them a long time ago.’ Alas, that technology hasn’t happened yet. 🙂

So I write what I can. I ramble when I do. I learn something everyday to keep on top of things and hopefully use what I learn in the future. By the way, that goes for my writing as well. I am constantly reading about publishers, self publishing, agents, query letters, submission sites for short stories, hours every day trying to learn more and more about this writing thing so I can be, well, not an influencer, but rather a writer worth reading and reading about. Would I like to be part of the #booktok world down the line? It would be nice. In the meantime, I will keep developing my characters and living in my fictional worlds while selling my jewelry and bookmarks. Why? #becauselife

One more quick note…as you may have noticed, I try to never inundate you with affiliate links and the like in my posts themselves. If I do talk about an item, or something I’d like to suggest to you like a current read, etc, I will add the links to the end of my posts. I do keep some links permanently on the sidebar of the blog as well, the are to my own shops and things I’ve designed. Also this past week, I’ve added a mini-shop to my linktree and you can, if you want to, purchase things directly through them. I will also add that link to the bottom of my posts as well, but I will never overwhelm you with linked products in my posts like many others do. That’s just how I roll.

Thank you again for hanging with me for a bit this week and hope you have a fabulous weekend! Until next time…

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